iits raining, like really hard. I’m listening to the song skinny love, and hearing the rain drops on my roof, and thinking about stuff, not wanting to go to work. not wanting to go to the doctor in the morning, I’m scared of what the doctor might say. i am more scared then i am letting on to Dora. I just don’t want her to worry, if it really is nothing. i love Dora, so much. and i know no matter what happens tomorrow with the tests, shes going to be there, and help me through everything, and i am so thankful for all of that, i don’t want her to leave me, and i know she won’t(:

   but i also want my mom around, shes my mom. no matter how much my love for Dora grows everyday, my mom is my mom and no one can replace her.

              my mom says she’ll be there for me and with me, but i don’t want my mom to bail, just bcz Dora is around. and i’m so scared she will.